Touching you…
Just testing out writing from my iPod touch via an app. Yes, there’s an app for that.
Filed under Random | Comment (0)Musings on Time
Welcome to 2010. February 2, 2010 to be exact. *sigh* Time flies when you’re having fun. Or not having fun. Not that I’m not having fun. It’s just that no matter what you do, or don’t do, time marches on. It’s not waiting for the world or situation to change, like you might be. Time really has no emotions or mercy. It certainly stops for no one – I’m not one who believes in the notion that time slows in a tender moment. I normally experience the opposite. The most boring moment can last a lifetime, but the fun and touching times are over before you know it.
It’s up to us to grab the moments that matter before they pass us by and tear them open like a gift, blow them up like a balloon to fill all possible space and bounce them around, float them along, play with them and around them. I just finished watching “Groundhog Day”, and one thing I had forgotten about is how much Bill Murray’s character Phil grows, once he realizes the gift he is given – the gift of time, the chance to live each day knowing that there’s another one coming and it will hold exactly what he expects and he knows exactly how to make a difference.
I don’t have resolutions this year. I don’t even have concrete goals. I am trying to make time my friend (my bitch?), to tame it, organize it. I find too much of my time is spent doing Stuff I’d rather not be doing, and while I accept a certain amount of this is necessary in life (unless I’m independently wealthy, then screw it), I’m growing selective about what Stuff occupies my extra time. Or at least, I’m trying to. At the very least, I’m figuring out that saying “No” once in a while hurts someone a lot less than I imagine it will when I’m running through reasons not to say “No” in my head. The Stuff that occupies my time should first and foremost be good for me and the folks I love/like – I’ve started running again, trying to spend more time being social with family and friends.
We’ll see how it goes, hey?
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This will be a post. Honest. But not right now, I’m going to walk the dogs.
Filed under Random | Comments (2)Hell has frozen over because…
… I’m posting a blog entry
… while running some Matlab code for my Masters’ research
… and I’m not hating it, avoiding it, or finding any old excuse not to do either.
I’m sucking it up. I’m doing what needs to be done to get this monkey (the thesis, not the blog) off my back. And I’m making (another) public declaration of my commitment through this medium in hopes of keeping myself Accountable.
Let me digress… almost two months ago, I turned 28. It’s not a milestone year, except for the fact that it’s closer to 25 than to 30. I’m not fearful of 30 or anything, but turning 30 is one of those Milestones. Some call 25 a milestone (my sister-in-law the doctor proclaimed that when she turned 25 she was ‘entering a whole new age bracket for different diseases’), but IMO you’re still figuring out who and what you are at 25. You’re still a “youf” (bonus points to anyone who catches the reference… ). You can still frig around, mess up and recover, and no one is going to judge you as being a failure. But 30… though I know some (many) who would argue with me, to be 30 is to be Grown Up (note the caps). Not necessarily meaning you have to stop being fun or silly (I don’t think I could do that if I tried), but it means to start taking Control and taking Responsibility (again, note the caps) of my life and my actions (or lack thereof).
So, I’ve been making the slow movement towards being a Grown Up, taking Control and Responsibility for my life. And the biggest thing I haven’t been taking Responsibility for is the commitment I made 4.5 years ago to get my M.Eng. degree (yes, it’s been THAT long). Rather than play the game of Avoidance, I’m giving in, sitting down, coding up, and seeing what happens.
I’ll keep you posted. In the meantime, I’ve got to check on my results.
Filed under Random | Comments (3)Home Improvements
I’m off work this week, but not to go anywhere fun and interesting (though we may go camping tomorrow!). I am home, helping my DH with a list of home repairs and improvements. The windows are painted, and the basement bathroom is being worked on. I can’t do “before” pictures because this project is a long time in the making, but I’ll show some “after” pics when it’s done.
I haven’t posted anything in a really really really long time. I’ll start soon.
Filed under Random | Comments (3)Summertime, summertime, sum-sum-summertime
Ya wouldn’t always think it, to look at the weather we’ve had here lately. One nice day means we must have at least two cold and foggy/rainy days. Honest. It doesn’t feel like summer yet either. Could be because I haven’t done my doing yet. It’s hard….. I was away for two weeks for work, now Brian is spending the week in Oslo for work, so it’s not like we can camp (if the weather were to cooperate). But hey, one good recent development is that Geoff’s home for good!
I’m trying to be productive. One thing I did do last night was update my gallery. You can now find pics from my latest work trip to Samara, Russia, with a day stopover in London thrown in for good measure. It was a good trip in that work went pretty much as planned and wasn’t too tiring. Some very nice people from some lovely places.
What I Think I Think
My loving hubby has often accused me of caring too much about what other people will think if I say/do something, and I’m slowly coming around to believe that he’s right (I know, he’s ALWAYS right, that’s what he thinks ayway ;) ). I’ve acted differently than I wanted or have done something (or not done something) in hopes of being perceived in a positive light (eg. interesting, ‘good’, smart, etc., etc.), even though it’s not what I wanted to say or do. Sometimes I doubt I have an “inner sense of self”. Would I be the same person today if I wasn’t so influenced by “outside forces”? Have I missed opportunities and chances? Who knows? Some days I wonder if I’ve made the right decisions in life, but I think we all do that from time to time… don’t we?
But here’s the thing… I’ve never been one to trust my own judgement when it comes to me, I think I’ve always looked for outside validation. I’ve always subscribed to the “You are what other people think you are” notion. But what good is that if you’re not sure yourself what you are? What do you do when you’re alone, stop being anything? I think I have a problem, call it low self-esteem or improper self-image or anything you want. And I want to work to fix it. I’m closer to 30 than to 25 and I figured that by now, I would have figured out who I am and what I want and what I want to be, what defines Lori if you will… maybe not enough for a Wikipedia page but something to write on a napkin. But every once in a while this feeling of “Am I myself, or am I being the person I’m expected to be, or am I being the person I expect others expect of me, or am I being the person I want others to think I am even though they don’t expect it?”. It usually comes out of nowhere, but it’s hit me a little more lately than before (maybe because I do see 30 just around the corner… not that I fear aging mind you, I honestly don’t). Maybe I’m having my mid-life crisis (doesn’t bode well for longevity)? Or maybe I’m noticing that people tend to think a lot less about me (in terms of quantity, not quality) than I once thought. Hey, maybe I think to much about myself. Maybe I’m overanalyzing here.
Oh dear. I’ve unloaded a lot on the internet, and I haven’t been drinking (well, one beer doesn’t count). And damnit, I’m gonna publish this (please note that it has not been checked from grammar or spelling). Those five people who actually read this thing may get concerned about my well-being… don’t be. I’ll be fine. I think.
Filed under Random | Comment (1)Fido Dido
For those of you wondering where Fido Dido ever went, I guess the N. American market wasn’t his cup of tea, so he went to Russia.
I am 40% girlie… I need some form of therapy
** Memed from half a dozen different people **
you:
[] You own over 10 bottles of nail polish
[] You own a designer purse
[] You own perfume that cost over $60
[X] You had/have fake nails
[x] You have more body/hair products than you can use
[] Your pet is a chihuahua/Pomeranian/Terrier/Siamese
[X] You have clothes/shoes/accessories for your pet
[] You have enough clothes to cover an entire refugee camp.
[x] You have enough pictures to create your own wallpaper.
[] A pink comforter, carpeting, walls or sheets.
total so far: 4
Do you:
[] Spend more time at the mall than you do at home/work
[x]Have a hair color that is not natural
[] Have “blonde moments” at least once a day
[X] Buy stuff because it’s awesome and then never wear it
[] Constantly keep your phone at your side
[] Dance around in your room when nobody else is home
[] Have a name for your car
[X] Know what celebrity is dating who and who broke up this week
[] Refuse to go out in public without makeup
[] Prefer to be called “princess”
total so far: 6
Do you adore:
[] Makeup
[] Glitter
[] The Color Pink
[] Shopping
[] Jewelry
[] Mirrors
[X] Chick flicks
[x] Shoes
[] Rainbows
[] Unicorns
[X] Disney Movies
[] Candles
[] Flowers
[] Stuffed Animals
[] Purses
total so far: 9
Do you shop at:
[] Coach
[] Forever 21
[] Victoria’s Secret
[] Guess
[] Claires
[] Express
[] Delias
[X] MAC
[X] Sephora
[] Bebe
total so far: 11
DO YOU SAY:
[]Bitch
[X]Whatever
[] Oh my gosh/goodness
[] Hun
[] Fugly
[] That’s hot
[] Dunzo
[] Darling
[] Psh
[] Cutie
[] Skank
[] Totally
[X] For Sure
[] Fantabulous
total so far: 13
Do You Read:
[x] Cosmopolitan
[] Glamour
[] Marie Claire
[] Elle Girl
[] Teen Vogue
[] People
[] Us Weekly
[] Star
[] Self
[X] PerezHilton.com
[] Dlisted.com
[] 17online.com
[X] people.com
[] usmagazine.com
[] popsugar.com
[X] Pink Is The New Blog.com
total so far: 17
Do You Love These:
[x] Legally Blonde
[] Elizabethtown
[] Mean Girls
[] Now & Then
[] The Notebook
[] A Walk to Remember
[X] Sweet Home Alabama
[] Where the Heart is
[] Just My Luck
[] John Tucker Must Die
[] Centerstage
[] Bring it On
[] How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
[] Mona Lisa Smile
[] My Girl
total so far: 19
Are you Addicted to…
[]America’s Next Top Model
[] Project Runway
[] Desperate Housewives
[] The Simple Life
[] 8th & Ocean
[x] Sex & the City
[] Grey’s Anatomy
[] The O.C.
[] Laguna Beach/The Hills
[] Nip/Tuck
[] Gilmore Girls
TOTAL: 20
Multiply by 2….
40
Those Sneaky Canadians (I know, old news)
This is several weeks old, but to continue the trend I started a while back, I would be remiss if I didn’t comment on it.
Mystery revealed: Poppy quarter led to U.S. spy warnings
It turns out our “strange” coloured quarters caused the alert that we were spyng on our allies with high-tech coins. Silly us with our coloured money… I’m surprised they haven’t suspected this for years, what with our “funny Monopoly money” we have in bills. But it’s wise to implement this spying scheme through the change people receive at Tim Horton’s… our other secret weapon. :)
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